david311

david311
  • Updated:July 1, 2011 7:32 am
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I am a painting contractor who has lived in San Francisco for 20 years. Most of my friends are tradesmen and we are pretty down to earth guys. I enjoy fixing things and working with my hands. I dont think much about "fashion" and maybe thats my "statement".
Not adhering to any one religion I am comfortable being a Christian. Raised a Methodist but finding comfort in practically any church, I am drawn towards people who actually live and demonstrate their spiritual beliefs. Times like these I struggle with faith.
Irish and German. Eighth generation American
I lean towards traditional values. Independent thinker somewhat conservative.
I am heterosexual.
Single; never married
One son age 14
I am 8 days away from surgery that will remove not only a large tumor but also my larynx, lymph nodes and part of my esophagus which will be patched up by grafts off my forearm. My entire world has changed, in some ways I cant even understand yet. Great support from family and friends, but I'm reaching out to people who have survived this, who have been there, who know how I am feeling. Confused, angry, freakish, like I'm being punished, doubting my own faith yet clinging to it, fighting for my life, somehow.

That was 6 months ago and here I am alive and healing up just fine. the chemo and radiation have been over for 2 1/2 months, but I still can get pretty ill sometimes still bedridden with nausea which is real frustrating.. trying to communicate with people is a constant form of rejection and frustration that I am already getting tired of. I find what people say of less and less importance to me and my life. however i seek out other like-minded people to exchange information. I am alone.


I am not exactly sure what it is most people use this space for. I see"personal ad" and I immediately think of lonely middle aged men creating some fictional self in hopes that some other lonely type will respond with her equally fictional account of who they are in hopes of ..........I really get lost at this point. what it is they are hoping for based on such self centered motives , and made possible with deception what could someone hope to happen from such deceptioncould only be the most shallow form of human interaction. Sure Im new here but the delphi forum seems full of this sort of interaction which only saddens me. Personally I am dieing of cancer, lost my larynx already and I have got to tell you folks how absolutely unimpressed I am with this forum taken over by people who are not motivated by wanting physical and spiritual healing. I find myself once again feeling lonely and disgust at my fellow human. Thanks for reminding me how hard it must be for God to love us all but somehow he does. I will pray for you all.